Journal Entry – October 18, 2025
Today is another day.
I feel so tired. As I sit here, my eyes close on their own. My eyelids are heavy, and this drowsiness runs deep. The tiredness in my body feels unbearable. Lately, I've been feeling this way more often—worn out physically, emotionally, even spiritually.
I sense God speaking to me, urging me to let go of the heaviness that weighs down my heart.
Letting go of offense.
Letting go of hurt.
Letting go of being judgmental.
Letting go of pride.
And so much more.
Then, I read Zechariah 3:3–5, and it truly encouraged me:
"Now Joshua was dressed in filthy clothes as he stood before the angel. The angel said to those who were standing before him, 'Take off his filthy clothes.' Then he said to Joshua, 'See, I have taken away your sin, and I will put fine garments on you.' Then I said, 'Put a clean turban on his head.' So they put a clean turban on his head and clothed him, while the angel of the Lord stood by."
This passage touched me deeply.
Joshua stood there, dressed in filth—yet God didn’t reject him. Instead, He removed the filth, took away his sin, and gave him clean garments. A clean turban. A new covering. A new identity.
I believe the same is true for me. The thoughts, emotions, and attitudes that don't reflect God's heart—He invites me to bring them to Him. I can release them. He will take them away. And in their place, He will give me what is clean, godly, and life-giving.
This gives me hope. Even in my weariness, He is working.
Javon and I read it together, and he actually teared up thinking about you—about everything you’ve been through and how much he just wants you to be happy since you do so much for everyone around you. You really bring something to him that no one else can replace. He might not want me to share that, but I think it’s important that you know.
ReplyDeleteIt was very meaningful and beautiful. Even in your tiredness, your words carry so much strength and faith. The way you shared from your heart and how you tied it to the passage in Zechariah really spoke to me.
That image of God removing filthy garments and replacing them with clean ones is powerful. It reminds me that He’s always working in us, even when we feel worn out. Thank you for sharing this. Your honesty and faith encourage us/me more than you know.
Love you atchi.
I appreciate your kind words Bry. You & Javon mean a lot to me and your honest opinion on my journal means a lot. My prayer is even in my tiredness, what I hear from God to touch another person. That’s why I write this blog.
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